From: Minor report - Sex between teenage boys and older men is not always coercive -- and it can be more ecstatic than traumatic.
By David Tuller
[A] man, a 38-year-old small-business owner from Denver, fondly recalls the two-year relationship he had with his boss at the pancake house where he worked as a waiter. He was
fifteen, when they had sex for the first time, he says, and it was the
fulfillment of something he'd desired for years.
"It was frightening and invigorating and I felt clumsy and awkward," he says. "But he was playful and fun and very gentle. I never felt coerced. As foreign as it was to me I was very open to it. Afterwards, I felt good, like I'd experienced something I'd wanted to for a long time."
His boyfriend, who was 29 when the relationship began, also helped alleviate the isolation he'd always felt by introducing him to a gay social circle and helping him begin a modeling career.
"In high school, I had this haunting feeling that I was different, so it was really liberating to find people who were gay," he says. "It was like, 'OK, I'm gay, I love it.' I wasn't an awkward, out-of-place kid anymore. I felt appreciated for being gay, instead of being an outcast and made fun of. Suddenly I had this new self-confidence. I didn't have to hate myself for being gay."